After all these years of stumbling in practices I felt like I had to do because they were more 'legit', I decided it was enough. If I don't have a passion for it, it just doesn't work! Hence, I started to do my own thing and I gave the thing a name: owomancy. I can't take all the credit for the name however, as it is derived from the internet insult 'uwumancer' which is often thrown at beginners of witchcraft or people whose practices are more cutesy and inspired by pop-culture. I took the term 'owomancer' because I don't like the term witch, magician & sorcerer for myself. It's a bit silly which I think fits well as I tend to not be too serious about this whole thing either! You want to summon a video game character? Sure, let's do it. Do you want to use Pokémon cards for divination? Why not! If magic is a tool you use to craft a nicer life for yourself and others there is no shame to have fun while you're at it!
What I like about demonolatry is that it reflects life. As much as there are demons for love (like Rosier) there are also demons for vengeance (like Svengali). It's up to you who you engage with and what you choose to do. I've spoken with Svengali before, but it was for his help with confidence not his aspect of vengeance. I choose to take the high-road as much as I'm able to when someone wrongs me, but not everyone will. We are perfectly imperfect with complex emotions and demonolatry honors that. I see revenge is a way of standing up for yourself and thus can understand why someone would want to. For me, standing up for myself is choosing myself & my own peace even when it's hard to do so. Don't think the days after a fight or the like are filled with thoughts of Love & Light™. Spite is an entertaining emotion to play with but helps no one in the long run and I actively fight against it for quite some time. All to spare myself a headache in the future.
I make demonolatry sound pretty self-centred, and to me it is. When you read I work with Mammon you may think I want money or fame, 'to build an empire', etc. Although the fame part is a little bit true (who doesn't want recognition for their work & effort, let's be real here) what I want most is stability. I want to be able to stand up for myself verbally and not just in silence. I want to be able to argue with someone why I don't want to do something or why I believe in what I believe. To have confidence in who I am & what I do. To have a place in this world which I felt rejected me since I was young because of my neurodivergence. Instead of trying to 'kill' my ego I temper it continuously to try to become the best version of myself I can be. Facing yourself and your ugly shadows isn't easy, but I don't want to leave them unchecked. Demons in demonolatry are guides & mentors and this is what Mammon (next to Rosier and others) help me with and why I chose this route. It works for me and I wouldn't want it any other way.
